apologies and words never forgotten

everyone out there who read my last post I'm sorry for all the hateful words I said, I have been in a bad place the past few days and I needed a rant. Sorry about taking it out on you guys, that was never my intention. Now onto what I have to say there are a lot of people out there confused on whats going on between me and another blogger out there, to be quite honest I am too but if I can shed a little light on the situation there has been an issue between me and this other person and the schools resolution was to keep each other apart which hasn't worked much. But it is what it is I honestly want my friend back and in my opinion it was going good, I don't know how she sees it but that's not my say. but as I'm sitting her right now, I cant help but look on the memories, my absolute favorite day was the day me and her took my senior pics. The photographer did an amazing job on them, and they are pictures I'll never let go of because of how happy I was then. But now I'm not so happy that's why I look back on the good times when I was, and wish that I could get that back. But I had to mess everything up but you know it takes more than one person to tango its not all my fault but im not saying I'm a saint either, with this last fight that ended everything. there are many things that were left unsaid, that I wish I could say, but I know she wont wanna hear it, or maybe she will I'll have no idea unless she decides to have a civilized conversation with me. until that happens Ill just lay in the background. what else can I say now much I missed the chance of having a friend, well yea I miss it and I'm sorry for the things that were said in anger. No mater how much I wish to go back to those moments and change it I cant, if I could I would have chosen my words better. But I cant I cant even ask for a second chance either because of how pissed she is, and I understand but the thought that I don't care that's wrong I care more than I care about myself I know its not right to say, but it is true all I can ever say now is be a better you and ill be here trying to be a better me. I was hoping you would get to see me make a better me by being my friend, maybe when things cool down a little bit we can stay in touch just not be friends. But who knows how life works its mysterious, you never know whats around the next corner. Not only am i going to work on myself I'm also going to keep promises I have made to her, and I hope she does the same for me but if not I

understand.